One week left!

So here I am just about 39 weeks pregnant and very anxious for the big day! Next week is going to be a busy, crazy, exciting week. On top of thursday being my due date. Wednesday is my birthday! And then to top it all off Saturday is Bryan and my 6th wedding anniversary! This will be the first year of many busy weeks in october!

Well today I went to the doctor for my weekly checkup and they noticed that for several weeks in a row my blood pressure was elevated and that I was having continued swelling in my feet and my hands. Today was the first time anything had been mentioned to me about any of it being a concern but they did suggest that I was displaying early signs of pre-eclampsia. As of now I have not been diagnosed with anything but it is something they want to watch me for. This can be a very serious condiditon and bad for me and baby but they were also able to check me and he was pleased to see that I am in a good sitiation for being induced if it comes to that. Thankfully this has presented itself when I am plenty far along to deliver and the health of the baby once delivered is not a concern. This could be very terrifying if I were not as far as I am. Praise God. So I go back in on Friday afternoon (2 days away) to see if I am still showing the same signs I have been and until I have heard otherwise I am on modified bed rest. Meaning I can move around but I pretty much need to be lying down at least half of the day. Good thing it won't be for very long cause I am getting pretty restless!

I will re-post when I know more!
Thanks for your prayers and I hope you all keep swimming!

36 weeks

Well I am now 36 weeks along and sooo excited! I cannot wait to meet this little one. It is still so surreal to me where all of this started. I haven't just waited 9 months for this baby I have waited 3 years and 9 months. God has taken me on quite the journey, from thinking that it may never be possible for me to concieve to having possibility after possibility taken from me until I gave up. Then when I had completly given up all hope that I would ever be a mother my doctor presented Bryan and I with a drug combonation we had not tried. I didn't think it would work. I was angry and I had given up but I had promised that I would try anything we could so I did.

When Bryan called me and told me he had spoken with the doctor and I had ovulated, he may as well have told me I was pregnant already. I was so extatic. It was as if every dream I had had taken away from me was restored. It was all possible again. My family I had dreampt about over and over would become real. I couldn't believe it. We got into the doctor the next month every other day and watched for my eggs and as soon as my body was ready we opted to do an insemenation. We were completly prepared to do it as many times as necessary but then a couple of weeks later Bryan picked me up from work, took me to do a blood test and then that evening he picked me up from work with a onesie we had made. How many men get to tell their wives they are pregnant. It was quite the expirence! I love that he was able to do that. I love that it worked and I love that here we are 9 months later ready to have a baby! I am sooo blessed~

I am excited to become a mother and hold my precious little baby for the first time. Thank you to all who have prayed for me and supported me through this increadible journey. I hope that you all will continue to pray and support me through my next journey of motherhood!

Just keep swimming my friends!

34 weeks

Well I am now 34 1/2 weeks along and getting sooo ready to see this baby! I wonder so much if it's a boy or a girl. If he/she will look more like me or Bryan. I am just so curious to meet this baby inside of me!

So far everything has been going pretty well with the pregnancy. However at my last appoitment the doctor mentioned that he had noticed a pattern of me measuring bigger than I am supposed to be. It started off pretty minor but last time it was up to 3 cm bigger. So basically I am measuring full term even though I am still only 34 weeks. So they decided that at my next appoitment they would measure me again and if it still looks like I am measuring big they will do another ultra sound to see for sure what is going on. If this baby is as big as they think then they will want to talk to me about inducing a little early to prevent a difficult delivery. I suppose that would be the lesser of two evils. I have never known anyone who was induced who didn't have a difficult delivery but I also don't want to risk having to have a c-section because I can't deliver a large baby. So I go in on the 16th for my next appoitment and we will know a lot more then.
It should be interesting either way!

Otherwise I am sore and tired and ready for this baby! I am doing my best to just keep swimming!

12 1/2 weeks~

So I am 27 weeks pregnant now and I am getting so excited~ We are working hard getting the nursery ready and slowing gathering a few things we may need.. ;) I am really hoping these next 12 and a half weeks go fast. We still have lots to do to be totally ready for our little one but I can't wait to meet him or her. I am very excited to say that we have finally decided on names! After much debate ( mostly on my part) we ( I) settled on a boy and a girls name! However...we are keeping these names secret. You will all find out what we are having and what their name is after the big arrival in October! Yeah! I love surprises, I hope you all do too! :)

Overall I don't know if I can say I have loved pregnancy, I have never been so tired in all my life and I could have seriously done without the sickness but right now I love feeling the movement. It is so crazy to look down and see my stomach move! It is so crazy!! In fact the computer is bumping as we speak LOL! I am happy to be on this journey and I can't wait until I get to enter the world of motherhood full throttle~!

Just keep swimming my friends!

22 weeks!

So wow, it has been like forever since my last post! I am now 22 weeks pregnant and getting bigger everyday. I have batttled morning sickness, virtigo, the headaches, swollen feet and hands and now the backaches but it is all so worth it everytime I feel that little wiggle in my tummy. It is so exciting to now feel the baby move!

Unfortunalty there is not much to update right now, I had my middle ultrasound when I was 19 weeks and we managed to not find out what it is we are having. So we will all have to hold on and wait around 18 more weeks till the big debut~ There is a lot of talk, so far thoughts of boys have won out amongst friends and family but there are a few girl wishers left in there too. I like hearing from people what they think I am having. Bryan says boy for sure and I have gone back and forth. I do think I picture the baby as a boy more than a do a girl but I like to try and think about the possibility of both :)

So I will try and keep everyone posted on my progress for the duration of my pregnancy and we will see if I can keep up on this blog after the arrival! So excited it's coming closer!

Just keep swimming my friends!

10 +

So I am 10 and a half weeks and every check up has gone absolutly perfect. My little girl/ guy is growing like a weed and that is actually becoming the scource of my pain. Aparently the baby is at the point where he/she doesn't really fit in my pelvis anymore but hasn't quite moved up to my abdomen, which is why I have been having so much cramping. At my ultrasound today they said that it really looked great, he/she is moving around like crazy doing kicks and rubbing his/her eyes. It was amazing to see, and it was a huge relief. Unfortuanlty it wasn't all good news, the baby itself is fine and that is good but the placenta is in a really bad position. It's called Praevia. It takes place when the placenta is directly over the birth canal, right now this really doesn't mean anything but later on in the pregnancy if it doesn't move it means that It could cause a lot of bleeding and a lot of problems if I tried to deliver vaginally. So we are going to keep a close eye on it throughout the pregnancy and if necessary we will schedule a c-section ahead of time as to not risk any un needed complications at delivery time.

I am relieved to know that my precious little baby is growing and developing so perfectly! He/she is only about two inches long but has the most precious little arms and legs and you could see ears and hips and....oh it was amazing! God is protecting us! I am so happy about it!

2 months

Well here I am 8 weeks along and things are going great. My doctor has me coming in every two weeks for an ultrasound to continue to watch my progress. He is continually using the word " perfect". I couldn't ask for a better word to hear! At my last US I was 7 weeks and we got the wonderful chance to see the perfect little flutter of a heart beat. At first I felt like Rachael on Friends not having any clue what I was looking at but then I saw it. It was so great. It was just a little flutter but it was perfect! It is my baby! I go in again on the 11th which will put me just shy of 9 weeks. I am so excited to see the heartbeat again. It should be even clearer this time too!

I am trying to read about my baby as much as I can. Last week I refered to my baby as our little blueberry and now we have a cute little rasberry! He/She is so tiny and so fragile. I am so in love!

I am so tired all the time and Bryan has been nothing short of amazing! I am anxious to get some of my energy back and getting a little more productive. We are keeping ourselves busy deciding what to do with the nursery and thinking about the ever so important job of naming this little one! What pressure! LOL

I am already anxious to meet our precious bundle of joy, I just know it's going to be a very long 7 months! But I want to enjoy every minute!

Almost 6 weeks

So it has been brought to my attention that I haven't posted since I have f0und out that we were expecting. So here it goes....

I am almost 6 weeks along and things are going great! I was expirencing some pains so I went into the doctor and he wanted to do an ultrasound. At just over 4 weeks I had my first ultrasound.They were slightly concerned of an eptopic pregnancy but so far everything was pointing to a no. They had me come back in 4 days later because they were unable to see everything they wanted. So that monday I went back and they did another ultrasound. This time they were able to see the gestational sac in my uterus. This was terrific news! They were also able to see what they called the fetal pole, which is basically the begining signs of our baby! So far he/she is about a milimeter long. So tiny and so perfect! We couldn't be happier! The Doctor also mentioned that he was pretty sure he saw a flicker of a heartbeat but not enough to prove it to us. So we get to go back on the 26th to try and see the heartbeat for ourselves! We are so blessed to have this chance! It has been such a long road and I just couldn't be any happier! Thank you for your prayers, keep it up we have a long 7 1/2 months to go!

WOW!!!

Holy Cow! It worked, it actually worked! I am Pregnant! I am actually pregnant! I am 5 weeks along ( and though I have not actually been to the doctor yet I know when the conception took place so I do know pretty much my due date) :) So mark your calendars my friends on or around October 15th 2010 Bryan and I will become parents! This has been an if for so long and a struggle for 3 years that I can't believe it's here! I am just so happy! God is so good!

I really want to thank everyone for praying for me and thinking of me and lifting me up through this time. It's been so hard but I have said all along it would be worth it and just knowing there is this perfect little life inside of me ( the size of an orange seed to be exact) It really is worth it!

I don't know if I could be any happier right now but I have to tell you I am missing my mom something awful. No matter who I tell I feel like I am missing out on getting to share this with her. I love my family and they have been unbelievable but no one can do what she can for me
I know she knows though and she has already kissed this precious little baby and sent him/her down to me on earth but It's harder thought it would be. Still I know she would want me to enjoy every second of this so I will!
Katie and I get to be pregnant together! This could get interesting but she is such great support to me. It's what I have always wanted. And our kids will be really close together! Like within two months of each other.

Thanks again my friends! I am so happy!

Tomorrow is the big day!

So today is day 31 of my cycle. This means that according to my good doctor my aunt flow should have shown up around day 28! Still no signs of her very unwanted visit so tomorrow I go in for my blood test! My hope is to get it done early enough in the day where I can find out the results tomorrow as well. From what Dr. Bachus said there is no reason for my period not to show other than me being preggo! I had to question him on this because well my period is never on time and is never normal but aparently if you ovulate it always shows up the next month! Who knew? LOL

So I am feeling good today, nervous, anxious, excited ( trying to not be too excited) So many emotions going through me right now it's crazy! This really could be the month!

Our plan however is that if we get the call tomorrow giving us good news we are not going to tell anyone else until we get the change to formally tell our famlies! So if you call one of us monday night or ask on facebook we won't answer! Sorry, but I will post on Tuesday as early as I can to let everyone who has been praying for us know how it goes!

Keep praying!

Patience, i need patience!

Wow! Who knew two weeks could take so long? I am very anxious and I am trying so hard not to be. I am now realizing how much time I spend at home, even when I am cleaning or cooking or trying to keep busy I can't seem to distract myself. Usually I love being at home but I am finding myself anxious to go out and get distracted!

I need lots of prayer. If the IUI worked it will be such a blessing and such a God thing! I have tried planning when I would get pregnant so many times and I find it rather hilarious that it was now that God chose to have me ovulate. If it worked I will be due in Oct. Not the best month. When I planned it, it was at the end of the school year and I wouldn't have to leave my kiddos at work mid year.... if this worked I will have to be pregnant through the summer which means NO SOFTBALL! Never in a million years would I have planned that. All of these reasons and many more really reassure me that God is in control of this and that is so awesome! His timing is never what I plan... probably for a reason I know.

Pray hard my friends! It's been less than a week and I am going a wee bit crazy!!!

hurry up and wait!

ok well I got my last insemination today, we figured out that there is a grand total of about 22,000,000 little swimmers all looking for my one little egg. Now we just have to pray that one of thoes 22,000,000 will find it's way. It seems like pretty good chances to me and even my doctor said that my egg doesn't stand a chance against all thoes swimmers! Now to give everyone a little perspecitve on what I am talking about is we were told that a lot of times when they do this procedure they are dealing with no more than 1,000,000 so they are thinking our odds are pretty good.

So now that the inseminations are over we get to just hurry up and wait. What does that mean you ask? Well we do nothing for the next two weeks. I do everything as though I am pregnant then if Aunt Flow makes her grand appearance we try again. But if she doesn't we call the doc and get a blood test. My doctor did say though that if AF didn't come he was pretty confident that that means I am preggo! He felt very good about it and so do we. We know that we may have to do this again but that is ok. God is good and he has lifted my spirits and given me hope!

Pray for Bryan and I ( and our whole family) these next two weeks. I need all prayer warriors to pray for patience for us, pray for peace in our hearts if it is not in God's plan for me to get pregnant this month. Pray that if this does work that the perfect little baby that will be inside of me will be well cared for and that I will be able to take care of little baby trostel the best I know how!

Thanks to everyone who is praying!

Prayer warriors!

Ok so when I went to the doctor today they told me that my egg that they saw that was ready hasn't passed from my ovary yet. This is ok but it means I had to get an HCG shot to encourage the egg to move on! So I got got the shot and now I have to go in tomorrow ( Saturday) and on Sunday to actually do the inseminsation. I will have to wait to find out if it works just like everyone else. In a couple weeks when aunt flow is supposed to show, if she doesn't then I get a blood test and if she does then well we will try again. I am very excited but don't worry I am totally aware that we might have to do this again. I am just so thankful that my hope has been restored. I have been in such a bad place lately, and God knew that and he gave me my hope back! Keep praying for Bryan and I. It is going to be a long couple of weeks but we will make it though together! Thanks!

God is good!

Well we can pretty much all ignore my last post at this point. I had pretty much given up any hope of getting pregnant (or even ovulating for that matter) without some serious drugs. The point I am at now is just a starting off point so the meds won't make me too sick but I have had some serious doubts wether or not it's even worth it....
Well let me tell you.....IT IS!!!

I went to my doc on Wed and I was pleasantly surprised, I am ovulating! For the first time in my life I am working correctly! There is one egg, one beautiful perfect egg ready to go and tomorrow I go in to see if it has done it's job. If it has and it has been released from my ovary they are going to inseminate me! woo hoo! If it's not ready they are going to give me a dose of HCG which in turn will release my egg, then I can go in on Saturday to be inseminated! So either way we are giving it our best shot this weekend!

Oh I am so nervous, this could be it. It only has to take one time. It might take more but this really could be it! I am praying so hard, Lord let your will be done!

This is also a blessing for us finanacially, because I haven't had to use the injectibles like we thought it is a fraction of the cost that we expected. Thus if it doesn't work we are going to be able to afford to try this multiple times! Praise the Lord oh my soul Praise the Lord!

Pray for me tomorrow and for the next month, it is going to be a very long month waiting to find out wether or not this has worked, pray for patience and pray that if this is the month when God will bless Bryan and I with our baby that he will cradle that baby and protect it from harm!

whew deep breath now and I am off Pray hard for me and Bryan!

The penny pinching has begun!

After much planning Bryan and I have figured out how to save for the IUI we are going to do this September. It is a grand total of 6,000 and we definalty don't have that much lying around. It is going to take a lot of skimping on our part but I know we can do it. This is also going to take a lot of creativity on our part to find new things to do without spending extra money. While trying to be creative we thought it might be a good idea to spend more time working out, so with our last bit of spending cash for 2009 we bought a new excercise bike so that is what 2010 will be about for me. It's not a resolution cause thoes are always broken. It's a promise to myself and not only will I feel better about myself I will hopefully end a nasty cycle! Bryan and I have talked about trying to renew our vows for our 15th wedding anniversary in some tropical setting and I don't want to do that feeling the way I feel about myself...So I am changing!

2010 is about so much, it's about finding my place in this world. Praying about my purpose, praying for my heart, It's about so much and I am so excited to put 2009 behind me and Welcome this new year full of promise and excitement!

Through it all I will definalty keep swimming~